Changing My Mentality

I don't think there's a part of my life God can be excluded from. Everywhere I am, there He is. Behind every thought, every action, every word. But instead of seeing Him as a silent finger-pointing ruler of the world, I can now see Him for what He really is, which is a caring, loyal, selfless creator who has ordained every part of my life for His glory and my enjoyment of knowing Him in all His glory.

And so, knowing that simple truth has changed how I think about things and how I can approach any situation. I am so filled with compassion and love for complete strangers lately. A simple thought occurred to me today which I verbalized to a coworker. If Christ can fully love his children as they shamelessly mock Him and nail Him to a cross, how much more can I simply love those around me who aren't threatening me in any way. Even during His death, Christ chose to exemplify the unchangeable love of His Father.

Even moreso lately, I can just FEEL God's presence through everything I do. Who was I kidding when I used to think I could hide certain parts of my life from God just because I wouldn't acknowledge them? That's just crazy. And why would I want to have that feeling of independence when God clearly has my best interests at heart? If anything, I should rejoice in never having a minute completely to myself. God is never asleep on the job saying "sorry, business hours are over...call again tomorrow."

I'm just grateful that I finally can see that God is a 24-hour well of love and patience that I will forever have access to, regardless of how little I deserve it. It's surprising, but I think I've been waiting for a long time to see if God will let me down. And even though I may be going through a trial or a test, God has never once given me more than I can handle. He will never bring a storm and then not offer me his own umbrella.

I'm in love with Him and I can't see this rapid growth of love slowing down anytime soon. It will never see the end of the tunnel because knowing the vastness of His love will take more than a lifetime. I can't wait to see what He has for me next!